So, I talked to my mom this weekend about everything going on. As some of you know, it has taken me a long time (like almost all of my close to 30 years) to be close to my mom. So clearly its a big deal if I am talking to her about it. Anyway, I was giving her the update about "F" since she forgets I have this blog and doesn't always read it. I told her how I was feeling about everything and that I really do believe this has nothing to do with me. At the same time, I also feel like this is not the way you treat someone who you claim to care about. I don't expect to be the main thing in his life right now given everything he has going on, but a little word here and there wouldn't be a bad thing. Even if he told me, "LMG, I just need some time to deal with whats going on" I think I could deal with that. At least give me the chance to decide if I can. Don't just ignore me. Well, my mom heard what I said. She asked me point blank if regardless of this I liked "F" and wanted to be with him. And the answer is yes, I do. I am so mad to say that, I really don;t want to get hurt. But I like him, he made me open up and I started to really look forward to being with him. I'm not talking marriage and children, but just spending time together, I guess being a couple. So the words of wisdom from my mom were basically:
Fight for what you want. At least give it a shot. If it doesn't work out, then it wasn't meant to, but at least you tried.
So, Mom, thanks for the advice, that's what I am going to do! And hey, if it doesn't work out, then I can be happy with the knowledge that I tried (oh, and that tomorrow my office building is giving away free Ben and Jerry's!!).